Toby groaned as the sun light shone through his bedroom curtains. He went to stretch but found a body on him. He froze in place, the last thing he remembered was drinking too much whiskey at the bar. Had he slept with someone and betrayed Justine? He hesitated to open his eyes and find out until he heard a familiar sleep mumble. He let out a breath of relief and looked down to find her in one of his t-shirts and a pair of his boxers. She must have gotten warm since she only had covers covering her left leg. Her arms were around his bare torso, her head laying on his shoulder. He slid from her grip slowly as he got up. HE walked over and shut his blinds and curtains. He groaned. He felt like someone was smashing his head in with a sledge hammer. He turned around and saw Justine had rolled over and was looking at him now. She was gnawing on her lip, something she did absentmindedly for the most part. He smiled softly and she looked away. He walked over and got back in bed, glad it was darker again. He scooted closer to her and put his hand on her shoulder softly, he looked at her, and from the corner of his eyes he saw that it was about 6 am. She shoved his hand off. He sighed softly
"What happened yesterday?" Toby asked in a whisper. Justine rolled over, she was shocked at how close he actually was, she didn't move though.
"You got drunk out of your mind, I came and picked you up and brought you back here."
"Oh, anything else?" She bit her lip and looked away from him. She rolled onto her back and looked at the ceiling, debating on telling him, she sighed softly before she answered.
"Yeah, quite a lot actually."
"Like what?"
"Well, we watched a movie, you threw up a few times and I helped clean you up. You drank some water and ate some oyster crackers."
"What do you mean helped clean me up?"
"Wash rag." She said she glanced over at him. "What?"
"Why are you wearing my clothes?"
"Oh, well you got puke on me, so I had to wash my clothes."
"Oh…" Toby said indifferently. He did wonder if they had sex, but he hoped they hadn't, he wanted to remember their first time.
"Yeah, I cleaned your house too. I was bored. I also ordered a pizza, your treat. There's leftovers in the fridge. You probably aren't hungry though." She smirked softly.
"Yeah, definitely not." Just the thought of food made Toby want to puke.
"Do you really not remember anything?" She looked into his eyes., searching for something.
"No, are you leaving something out?" She looked away immediately. Toby knew then that something happened. "What aren't you telling me?"
"We uh, there was a moment, where I kissed you."
"Is that all?" Justine looked over, seeing in his eyes that he hoped that was all. Did he not love her like that?
"No." She said, wanting to cry.
"Did we…?" Toby trailed off… He saw she was hurt, but he wasn't sure why, did he hurt her?
"Yeah, we did." She looked up at the ceiling again.
"Oh." Toby said, awkwardly. There was silence for a few minutes until Justine said something.
"Why did you say it like that, like you didn't want us too."
"Because I wish we hadn't. I wanted to remember the first time." Toby said, he didn't take his eyes off of her. He put his hand on her stomach softly and rubbed it slowly.
"Oh.." She looked over at him. "I wish I could forget it.."
"Why? Was it not.. good?" She shook her head softly.
"It was uh, well.. You got a little lazy when I was done with you." She couldn't help but laugh a little. "It was all just, uh, well… Oral and..." She trailed off, gesturing with her hands.
"Oh, sorry." He felt ashamed of himself. It sounded like he got all the pleasure.
"You were drunk. I don't even know what I was thinking. I just wish I could take it all back. I feel like I took advantage of you because you were drunk. I guess I was desperate.."
"I must have been really sexy looking for you to get so desperate." Toby chuckled softly and slid his hand up slowly.
Justine just looked into his eyes, he wasn't looking at her face anymore, he was watching her eyes as his hand felt up her body. She bit her lip softly as he leaned in. He looked up into her eyes to see she was leaning in too, he looked at her lips then closed his eyes. Their lips met in a gentle kiss. Toby's hand slid back down and rested on her waist as they kissed softly. He pulled away slowly to breath and sighed. He leaned his head on her shoulder.
"I'm sorry, Justine. I really am. You deserve so much better."
"Why did you leave me?" She asked abruptly. He sighed softly and closed his eyes as she put her hand on his back.
"I was afraid that I would hurt you if I got in too deep with you. I have a bad reputation for breaking hearts, and after all you had been through, that was the last thing I wanted to do to you."
"Toby, you silly boy." Justine shook her had slowly.
"I'm sorry, I regretted it the moment I did it." Toby leaned up on his elbow and looked at her, he wanted to tell her so bad. He remembered the moment when she was glowing, on their six month anniversary. Right before he told her they needed a break, and she told him she loved him. "I love you too. That what I should have said that night." He shook his head softly as she looked up at him. "It's what I was thinking, you looked stunning, glowing; so happy. I can't express how sorry I am."
"I didn't even think you heard me. My life shattered into tiny pieces." Toby just watched her, looking into her eyes. "I forgive you." She smiled softly, and Toby returned it.
"Thank you."
"I love you. I really do." Justine reached up as she said it and put her arms around his neck. She pulled him down and kissed him. They smiled to themselves softly as they kissed.
"I love you too." Toby said when they pulled away.
"What happened yesterday?" Toby asked in a whisper. Justine rolled over, she was shocked at how close he actually was, she didn't move though.
"You got drunk out of your mind, I came and picked you up and brought you back here."
"Oh, anything else?" She bit her lip and looked away from him. She rolled onto her back and looked at the ceiling, debating on telling him, she sighed softly before she answered.
"Yeah, quite a lot actually."
"Like what?"
"Well, we watched a movie, you threw up a few times and I helped clean you up. You drank some water and ate some oyster crackers."
"What do you mean helped clean me up?"
"Wash rag." She said she glanced over at him. "What?"
"Why are you wearing my clothes?"
"Oh, well you got puke on me, so I had to wash my clothes."
"Oh…" Toby said indifferently. He did wonder if they had sex, but he hoped they hadn't, he wanted to remember their first time.
"Yeah, I cleaned your house too. I was bored. I also ordered a pizza, your treat. There's leftovers in the fridge. You probably aren't hungry though." She smirked softly.
"Yeah, definitely not." Just the thought of food made Toby want to puke.
"Do you really not remember anything?" She looked into his eyes., searching for something.
"No, are you leaving something out?" She looked away immediately. Toby knew then that something happened. "What aren't you telling me?"
"We uh, there was a moment, where I kissed you."
"Is that all?" Justine looked over, seeing in his eyes that he hoped that was all. Did he not love her like that?
"No." She said, wanting to cry.
"Did we…?" Toby trailed off… He saw she was hurt, but he wasn't sure why, did he hurt her?
"Yeah, we did." She looked up at the ceiling again.
"Oh." Toby said, awkwardly. There was silence for a few minutes until Justine said something.
"Why did you say it like that, like you didn't want us too."
"Because I wish we hadn't. I wanted to remember the first time." Toby said, he didn't take his eyes off of her. He put his hand on her stomach softly and rubbed it slowly.
"Oh.." She looked over at him. "I wish I could forget it.."
"Why? Was it not.. good?" She shook her head softly.
"It was uh, well.. You got a little lazy when I was done with you." She couldn't help but laugh a little. "It was all just, uh, well… Oral and..." She trailed off, gesturing with her hands.
"Oh, sorry." He felt ashamed of himself. It sounded like he got all the pleasure.
"You were drunk. I don't even know what I was thinking. I just wish I could take it all back. I feel like I took advantage of you because you were drunk. I guess I was desperate.."
"I must have been really sexy looking for you to get so desperate." Toby chuckled softly and slid his hand up slowly.
Justine just looked into his eyes, he wasn't looking at her face anymore, he was watching her eyes as his hand felt up her body. She bit her lip softly as he leaned in. He looked up into her eyes to see she was leaning in too, he looked at her lips then closed his eyes. Their lips met in a gentle kiss. Toby's hand slid back down and rested on her waist as they kissed softly. He pulled away slowly to breath and sighed. He leaned his head on her shoulder.
"I'm sorry, Justine. I really am. You deserve so much better."
"Why did you leave me?" She asked abruptly. He sighed softly and closed his eyes as she put her hand on his back.
"I was afraid that I would hurt you if I got in too deep with you. I have a bad reputation for breaking hearts, and after all you had been through, that was the last thing I wanted to do to you."
"Toby, you silly boy." Justine shook her had slowly.
"I'm sorry, I regretted it the moment I did it." Toby leaned up on his elbow and looked at her, he wanted to tell her so bad. He remembered the moment when she was glowing, on their six month anniversary. Right before he told her they needed a break, and she told him she loved him. "I love you too. That what I should have said that night." He shook his head softly as she looked up at him. "It's what I was thinking, you looked stunning, glowing; so happy. I can't express how sorry I am."
"I didn't even think you heard me. My life shattered into tiny pieces." Toby just watched her, looking into her eyes. "I forgive you." She smiled softly, and Toby returned it.
"Thank you."
"I love you. I really do." Justine reached up as she said it and put her arms around his neck. She pulled him down and kissed him. They smiled to themselves softly as they kissed.
"I love you too." Toby said when they pulled away.
Well. That's it. Over. I tried ending it on a good note, and I hope I did.
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